Seasons

Fall feels like fresh starts and unlimited possibilities. The changes of the leaves and the crisp autumn air get me feeling kinda nostalgic and reflective. I've been thinking about the difference seasons in my life.

There have been seasons of abundant joy and seasons of staggering pain, seasons of pure adrenaline and excitement only to be followed by seasons of waiting and wandering in the proverbial desert. Seasons when it felt like all my wildest dreams were coming true, and seasons when it felt like nothing was happening and I was barely keeping my head above water. The highs and the lows.

There have been so many times where it felt like the particular season I was in just didn't make any sense. My Why God seasons. The waiting. The growing and stretching. The faith without sight. The feeling lost, stuck, unworthy, not good enough.

But in hindsight, I can see how it all came together to form a sort of mosaic that is my life. All these fragmented pieces make something unique and beautiful and whole.

Being able to reflect on my seasons of life has given me such an unwavering and steadfast hope and resilience in my faith, knowing that God uses every single circumstance for good. 

And for that, I am filled with gratitude. I look back and see that "missing out" really meant protection. I look back and see that a closed door or closed relationship, saved me from a lifetime of hurt. I look back and see that uncertainly catapulted me into the certainty of His love and guidance, every step of the way.

I look back and see so much favor and grace. So many undeserved gifts.

The God of angel armies cares for me. Wow; what a thought.

The author of life itself, knows every. single. fiber. of. my. being., and loves me.

The God who spoke life into existence, softly calls me into a loving embrace.

Once you begin to wrap your mind around His Love for you, you can begin to trust that no matter what season you're in, you are never walking alone. There is always something good that will come from this chapter, even if it's the hardest one yet.

You will be someone else's rock when they're facing the same obstacle.

You'll make a difference in the world in ways you can't even imagine.

You'll blossom into the best version of you. The You-est You. :)

But no matter what ... always, always, always remember how loved you are.